You are very perceptive and seem to have great affinity with Chan.
The Chan Qi is one of the most wonderful Dharma Doors in Mahayana. It is a shame that Pao Lin is no longer doing 100-day Chan Qis. Maybe we’ll have to restore this wonderful Dharma in the US in order to help people become enlightened quicker.
You should use the opportunity to train by taking part in their Chan Qis. Come for a day or day on the weekend. Gradually increase the number of days.
After you can do three or four full days, you should consider coming to Lu Mountain temple to participate in our Chan Qis for seven days. You’ll make a lot of progress.
Bliss in the Dharma.